Life at KAMPAR

Went back hometown this week to use the rm200 voucher. There is a lot of up and down going on this week. Sometime i can't understand myself why am i so restricting. Why i'm so introvert? Did you know , that night was the most horrible night ever. Sitting alone in room while waiting for you as you said you won't be gone for long. I waited and waited and waited and finally i gave up. I admit that i'm very restricting but i just want you beside me all the time. Is that too selfish? Here birthday there birthday and lastly going to be your birthday soon. Gonna celebrate with who? Surprises middle of the night? haih forget it. Gonna let you go for another night again.
Everyday sure will argue with me. Why can't we just live like normal couple?
Just let it be ba...

It's the 4th day of CNY. Went out yesterday with my secondary school friends. Played poker games and i'm not good at playing these games. So , they pawned me early in the game. But after sometimes , the luck suddenly shifted to me. LOL. And i started winning , Eventually turned their faces pale. It's hilarious.
To Delon that is going to US next month , i wish you all the best and be successful in life.
Still staying home today and not going out. Last day at home town as i'll be leaving tomorrow evening. Bought 3.30p.m bus ticket. Sad? Yeah. Staying home makes me sad. It's best for me to leave the home as everything aren't going well here. Ohh ya. Only my father and my granpa knows that i'm leaving tomorrow. As for others , i don't think you deserve to know it. And don't ever blame me for not informing YOU! It's my life now.
Cycled for almost 4 years and at kampar , still cycling. I'm tired man. Really. I'm tired. From now onwards , it's my journey , my path. No more supports from anyone. I'm all alone. I've learned something and will take it as a lesson in my life. Never count on anyone. You can't rely on anyone even your family. Sad huh?
Vanness , you can do it. Gambateh.!!

Today is the first day of CNY and here i am blogging as there is lot of things going on my mind now.. I'm not lying but this is the saddest CNY i had ever celebrated im my life. My family isn't my family any more. I feel like i'm not a part of the family and i really don't like staying at home as it's really moody and sometimes it often got me pissed off.
What family really is? What is home? CNY?
Family reunion dinner? I'm totally upset about it. Someone has taken something from me and it makes me feel like slapping her. Haih. That's life. Is this the family that i wanted? How can she did this to me and some more someone has been backup-ing her. And to that person that has been backup-ing her , i really disappointed and well you know what , u make me understand that never count on ppl in life. Everything is depended on oneself. Count on ppl too much and u will ended up like me. And those FAKE attitude that the bitch has been showing to me? pardon JUZ FxxK OFF.
Thanks to my granpa that has been accompanying me and not laying down although i might have been hurting you for over the past.
And to my bii , sorry ya. These things has been overwhelming me these days. And i brought it into our relationship and somehow accidentally hurt you.. SORRY... :'(
Once i feel like going to work and stop studying. But for a second i think through it carefully and something is holding me back. But who knows i might working instead of studying. Miserable now.
Those who read this post , can u do me a favour? Keep this story between us ya.
Vanness will be tougher day by day and will be a better man in future.

It's such been a long time since the last time i had blogged. Well , CNY is getting nearer as we speaks. And great , i haven't bought any clothes and pants. Fetched my dad to Pacific last Sunday to buy new clothing. The mall was super duper crowded. And the most important thing was its discounted items. :D


Have been working since i got back from Kampar. Wish could earn enough money to buy a new phone for Bii. I thinks it would be enough but she resisted and intimidated me not to waste money. Her phone had spoilt and still she don't want to change a new one. Whenever i talk bad thing about her phone , she sure will say " dun say like this la , wo mei dou mei you xian qi ta , my phone sad ady la u say like this". LOL so cute. I will buy for u one. No worries. HAHA. Things that i wanted to do sure i will done it. Nobody could stop me. ^^


Read the diary that my ex gifted me during my last year birthday. Quite a lot of things and hardwork that she puts in writing and compiling everthing into the diary. Thank you. I really hope you can find your "true" ling yi ban in your life. Maybe i wasn't good at appreciating the love that you had given to me.


And the last thing on my mind now is i want to say to Fong Yuen Ching that i really do love you.