Life at KAMPAR

Today is the first day of CNY and here i am blogging as there is lot of things going on my mind now.. I'm not lying but this is the saddest CNY i had ever celebrated im my life. My family isn't my family any more. I feel like i'm not a part of the family and i really don't like staying at home as it's really moody and sometimes it often got me pissed off.
What family really is? What is home? CNY?
Family reunion dinner? I'm totally upset about it. Someone has taken something from me and it makes me feel like slapping her. Haih. That's life. Is this the family that i wanted? How can she did this to me and some more someone has been backup-ing her. And to that person that has been backup-ing her , i really disappointed and well you know what , u make me understand that never count on ppl in life. Everything is depended on oneself. Count on ppl too much and u will ended up like me. And those FAKE attitude that the bitch has been showing to me? pardon JUZ FxxK OFF.
Thanks to my granpa that has been accompanying me and not laying down although i might have been hurting you for over the past.
And to my bii , sorry ya. These things has been overwhelming me these days. And i brought it into our relationship and somehow accidentally hurt you.. SORRY... :'(
Once i feel like going to work and stop studying. But for a second i think through it carefully and something is holding me back. But who knows i might working instead of studying. Miserable now.
Those who read this post , can u do me a favour? Keep this story between us ya.
Vanness will be tougher day by day and will be a better man in future.